Thankful or no Thanks?

It is Thanksgiving. As I sit in my Aunts farm house in Connecticut, I realize how much I miss sharing my thoughts and feelings on this blog. So I’m bringing it back. With a vengeance.

 

However before that happens, I must explain where I am. I’m currently sitting in a plush CT farm house with my family. I have lived in NYC for 6 months. I work at a large, global, massive, 130+ office advertising agency.

I have a 401(k) savings retirement plan. I am saving already for my retirement.

Ok now rewind. How did I get here? What did I do? What didn’t I do?

This 20 something girl is no longer 21. But my eyes very much so feel focused and stuck on that lens. So I shall keep the name. The rest of the contents of this blog, however, are changing. I’m using this as a chance to explain to all and myself how this crazy stage of 20 in my life is supposed to go. Is there really any correct way to go about being 20? Is there something I’m missing?

I’m terrified.

I’m single.

I turn 23 in less than a month.

I support myself.

What is wrong with this picture? Absolutely nothing. I’m cute. I’m fun. Yet sometimes, somehow, I feel inadequate. I feel like I don’t belong. Why am I like this? What is standing in my way of happiness? Am I not happy?

 

A lot of my best friends have asked me if I’m happy lately. I always respond, I mean I could be happier.

So let me divulge. What can I do in specific that would make me happier? What am I missing?

Taking a shower and will be back to ponder further.

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